16.0405 Spent whole life hiding fetish

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@24.0911-1342.99 by Atx

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Dear Marla, 

I've spent my whole life hiding who I am from the rest of the world.

Most of the time I went without. As I grew older, my sexual polarity gtradually drifted away from hetero, as the fetish inexorably usurped it. I found sex with others to be, well, non-magnetic. 

 It was not their fault, of course. My sexual 'polarity' has been gradually shifting toward having rubber as my partner rather than a person. 

I have become solo.

The unexpected part of this is that this it seems to pertain only to physical aspects of sex -- what brings one to orgasm.  

I can remember how I would wait impatientally for Frank's next business trip.  I'll never forget how excited I became when, about half-way through my decade with Frank, his company promoted him to a store opening manager. The minute he told me he'd be travelling to other cities to hire and train store start-up crews for a week or two at a time, I remember how wet I became. 

Don't get me wrong. I loved Frank during most of our time together.  When he went off on his business trips, I missed him. He called me every day. My heart pined for him while he was gone.  He broke my heart big time when he dumped me.